Anniversary January 19, 2011
Posted by Doug Hanna in Doug News.trackback
Tomorrow is my anniversary.
No, I’m not dating anyone. I’m not married, either.
Two years ago tomorrow I found Jesus Christ.
Time flies so incredibly fast, it seems like last month I struggled with suicide and depression. Or last week that I didn’t believe a “God” could ever exist. It seems like yesterday was January 19, 2009, and I was choking back tears from the Eternal Joy I had been missing.
I recounted the story a bit in my last post here, so I’ll be brief with that point. But the most important thing that ever happened to me, was during that night, when I got down onto the floor, on my knees. I put my hands together and said, “uh… Hi God…”
But I was stopped.
Before I could ever make an intelligent thought, before I could beg for forgiveness from my sins of the past years of my life, or plead for happiness in life, God interjected. “Welcome home Doug. Today, all the angels and saints are rejoicing because you’ve returned. Now go to bed, we have big plans for you.”
I can’t even think of that event without tearing up. God loved me so much, and He had such a frank way of saying it. He WANTED me to believe in Him, to have a relationship with Him, to live in His Divine Will. And, then, what’s more?! He said He had plans! Big plans! (Of course, I know now that every plan God makes is big. Even the ones that are small.)
For so long I was lost. Fumbling and tripping my way through darkness, I had a candle, but it wasn’t lit.
When I opened my doors for Jesus I not only made a turning point in my life, but it was, beyond a shadow of a doubt, the happiest moment I have ever lived. It’s the kind of moment that will not be triumphed in terms of awesome until I meet Jesus in His Kingdom: When I can throw my arms around Him into a big hug.
I haven’t been perfect, not by any sense of the word, but I’m always improving. Always striving to become closer to that Light… that Marvelous Light that reached so far into the darkness to pull me up.
For two years I have been in an active relationship with Jesus.
I haven’t looked back, and I haven’t been happier.
happy Anniversary! You are an amazing young man! Thank God for intervening that day. The world would not be the same without you in it. I am proud to say I know you and can call you friend! God Bless!