God’s Will (But Seriously This Time) January 7, 2011

In a few weeks the date January 19, 2011 will mark two years that I have known Christ.

On January 19, 2009, I stayed up late into the night, reading Me, Myself, and Bob by Phil Vischer. I finished the book, cried, thought, and then… prayed. For the first time in my life I prayed. Throughout that first experience I was nervous. I put my sweaty palms together and weaved my fingers in between each other, locking those hands together. I got down on my knees and I remember our dialogue perfectly.

I said, “uh… Hi God…” and He said to me, “Welcome home Doug. Today, all the angels and saints are rejoicing because you’ve returned. Now go to bed, we have big plans for you.”

Whoa…

A few months later I made a video called Where Is My Tiger? The video that would turn into Blue Squid Productions.

Since that fateful Winter night, I’ve read Me, Myself, and Bob countless times, tonight, I just finished it for the billionth, and no matter how many times I hear that “True Story About God, Dreams, and Talking Vegetables” I still learn more each time.

God knows what He wants from me, and therefore, what I do with my life is none of my business. A lot of the stupid things that have come out of Blue Squid Productions this year, (The “new focus,” “Paul’s Prank,” etc.) did not come from the Will of God. They came from me, a flawed human who gets too excited sometimes.

Upon reflecting I thought, “I’m going to have to end Blue Squid Productions… This creative outlet that has been there for me for nearly two years now, and changed my life immeasurably, is done. I need to move on.”

I didn’t know what I would be moving onto, but God spoke a bit clearer then. The idea is not to give up Blue Squid Productions, which came from Him, but to make sure it stays with Him.

It goes something like this: God brought Blue Squid Productions into my life, and I snatched it from Him. I did my own thing with it – AND THAT WAS WRONG!!! I don’t need to leave Blue Squid Productions, I need to bring God back into it. God is in it still, in the sense that I pop in and pray, and put a Bible verse at the end of my videos, but some of these concepts come from Doug. Not God.

Ideas develop in my wonderful brain that God gave me. Concepts birth from my little human fancy.  Those aren’t the videos I want to make, those aren’t the stories I want to tell. I have no right to claim that my life or my ministry are for God, when I don’t give the Man any say!

That’s what it needs to be about now. I don’t want to do some crummy video “for God,” I want to create an amazing video with God.